D- Darkness & Depression- Reach out



The news in the last few days has been about the actress Pratyusha Banerjee’s suicide. Last year a 15 year old girl threw herself off the 10th floor of my apartment building because she was reprimanded severely in school. I saw the body and saw the mother breakdown completely. I was so disturbed that I had written about it. The number of suicides are rising. Is it just a growing hopelessness given the apathetic world we are living in or is it a refusal to talk about mental illness and its devastating effects when not treated?

To all those people feeling hopeless

here’s my wish for you

I wish you realise that we all have our light and our darkness and at various points we’ve all been in that place where the darkness overrides the light. So you’re really not alone. REACH OUT.

I wish you realise that problems are temporary and solutions can be found. If it feels too overwhelming. REACH OUT.

I wish you realise that you are special. You may not see it now, but there was, is and will always be something greater in you than your current circumstances. Relationships can break, people & money will come and go, life in general can seem very  hard. But there are people who love you, who’ll do anything to see you smile and be happy. The darkness will obscure this. So when you forget it, REACH OUT. They’ll remind you.

I wish you realise that  it truly is the darkest before dawn. But when the sun comes shining through, things won’t seem that bad anymore. But you don’t need to go through that darkest part alone. REACH OUT.

I wish you realise that there will be days when the shit hits the fan, when everything bad seems to happen together. All you might truly need at that time is a friend to tell you that they are there no matter what. REACH OUT.

I wish you realise that it’s okay to be tired. Okay to want a break from it all. Okay to feel lost and unwanted or taken for granted especially when the darkness is closing in. But the situation is not you. You are more than that.  REACH OUT.

I wish you realise that everything might be going really well and you might still be sad and cut off and not understand why. It’s okay. All you need to do is REACH OUT.

Reach out.

Because life is precious.

Because you are meant to be happy.

Because life is meant to be lived. Fully.

There will be ups and downs. There will be darkness.



Ask for help, if required.




Beat up a pillow.

Break a few plates if you must.

But reach out.

Don’t stay in that dark place.

Don’t let the darkness convince you that hope is lost.

Don’t let the darkness convince you that you don’t matter.

Because you do.

Sometimes more than you realise.

And most times- more than you will ever know.

Reach out. Please.


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A- April

A-Z of random thoughts and stories from my life, loves, food , family and books.


She sat in her balcony surrounded by her plants,

listening to the wind chimes, on a cool summer evening.

Tomorrow would be different. Tomorrow, would be a new start.

Tomorrow would be the first of April.

April for her was all about new beginnings. It always was. Right from childhood.

It was the end of the school year and the beginning of a two month holiday.

It was the New year according to the lunar Calendar which was celebrated with gusto in her family.

It was the beginning of summer.

It was when she got her first job.

It was when she met the love of her life.

It was when she got pregnant.

April has always heralded new changes. Tomorrow would be another one.

A decision to take the reins of her life back .

She’d lost herself.. somewhere between work, marriage and motherhood.

to the point that she didn’t recognize the person in the mirror.

To finally accept that despite her fabulous and blessed life

she wasn’t living it fully.

The restlessness had come calling.

And it insisted on being acknowledged.

and she had to pick up those reins.

to create a destiny that demanded to be based on choice.

Not going along with a flow.

And as usual it was in April

that change came calling and she went along.

Difference was.. She took charge.


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